As I’ve grown older, I’ve noticed the depressing trend of holidays that once enticed me as a child, now slowly fading away into nothing, leaving small traces of their magic behind. These sprinklings of magic left over are only enough to cultivate a sad nostalgia for the enthusiasm I’ve lost.
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On past Christmas mornings, I used to eagerly bound down the staircase, anxious to claim my presents and give gifts of my own. Now, my only Christmas morning wish is to curl back into a ball in my fluffy, warm comforter and drift back to sleep.
Similarly, other holidays come and go without me even noticing. Recently, I’ve been searching for the cause of this strange holiday apathy. While I have not discovered an answer, I have found that others share my malady, and I’m beginning to wonder if it is simply a symptom of shedding my Sock Monkey footie pajamas and becoming an adult. If my theory proves true, then I might not be quite as excited to grow up as I thought I was.
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Don’t worry, I still haven’t said good-bye to these yet.
Along with a greater awareness of the world that becomes clear when entering adulthood, we can sometimes lose the valuable perspective that childhood provides.
At the risk of sounding cliche, I’ll admit that I’m jealous of the fact that children have the unique ability to appreciate the simplest things in life. Their thoughts aren’t a jumbled mess of worry an discontent. Sometimes it only takes a smile to enrich heir entire day.
I still do appreciate the benefits of wisdom that typically comes with maturity, although I’m not old enough to have much of it. College is like an awkward, empty space between the spheres of childhood and adulthood. You can almost clearly see each sphere and all the benefits of existing inside of it, but you’re an outsider to each one. I can’t claim childlike wonder or adult wisdom.
I yearn for a balance between the life experience of an adult and the alacrity of a child. However, as a college student I feel like I’m stuck with the foolhardy ignorance of a kid and the jaded caution of an adult.